💚Today, I Came Undone Quietly💚

 “Today, I Came Undone Quietly”
Today the air feels heavier
than it did yesterday.
It sits on my chest like a secret
I can’t remember how to keep.
My mind keeps slipping through cracks—
whole hours disappear
into places I don’t recognize.
I look for myself in mirrors
and find only the outline
of someone who used to laugh
when tiny hands held hers.
Every thought circles back to them—
my girls, my pulse,
the rhythm my heart still keeps
even in their absence.
It’s strange how love can echo
in a house that’s gone silent.
I try to stay anchored—
count breaths, sip coffee,
pretend the ache isn’t winning.
But memory feels like water lately;
it runs through my fingers,
and I can’t hold on to anything
long enough to stop the flood.
There are moments I forget
what day it is,
but I never forget them.
Their laughter still lives
in the corners of my mind,
like light that refuses to burn out.
If they could see me—
really see me—
they’d know I’m still fighting,
still searching for the pieces
that went missing the day
I had to let them go.
Some days, I am made of hope.
Others, I am made of ache.
Today, I am both—
and neither—
and something lost in between.
But I’m still here.
Still breathing their names.
Still loving them louder
than the silence that tries
to erase me.💚