Embracing the Darkness

My daughters are the light of my life—the reason I breathe, the reason I smile, the reason I keep going. Without them here with me, everything feels so dark. It’s getting harder and harder to put on a fake smile, to pretend I’m okay when all I do is cry. I’m so sad all the time, and I hate feeling like this. I just want my daughters home.

I want to be the mom I know I can be—the mom they deserve, the mom I was before all of this. The only thing I’ve ever been certain about in this life is being their mommy. Without them, I have no purpose. My life feels meaningless without them.

I wish I could go back. I wish I had never let them go visit New York. If I knew then what I know now, everything would be so different. I just need my life back. I need my daughters back. I need this pain to stop because it’s only getting worse.

I’m at a breaking point. I don’t know what to do anymore, but I know I can’t keep living like this. If you’re reading this, please send me strength because I truly need it more than ever